it belongs to me

this is the end of this day..

akhirnya, setelah sebenernya ga niat kemana” hari ini, pinginnya cuman di rumah aja intropeksi diri, tadi akhirnya sempetin juga keluar buat ngerayain hari ini. akhirnya tadi ber-7 (aku, gepe, respati, rini, jo, andika with his girl friend) nangkring makan, ketawa” ga jelas, nostalgia waktu kuliah, di pizza hut carefour rungkut.

makannya cuman bentar, cerita”nya yang lama. secara udah lama banget ga ngumpul” lagi. nostal-gila jaman kuliah dengan mengingat” cerita” lucu tentang beberapa temen (sorry guys, kalian dibicarain tadi, abis lucu sih!!!). thank’s guys, i enjoyed this night..

let’s begin this new age with new me.

ps: please help me, God, i’m nothing without You..

today is the 23rd years i’ve been living in this world, and i live for nothing. just do the usual human-doing like breathing, eating, sleeping, walking, nothing special. tonight when i realized, what can i do for make it worthier? i saw my friends and some-other people i know (but may be they don’t know me anyway) now living with their dreams, at least they know what they want to do to live. but i, i don’t know what am i doing right now. i am working right now, but is it in the field i want? i don’t think so. what do i want? i want to have a job where i enjoy doing it; it doesn’t mean i’m not enjoying my present job. i enjoy this job; i take pleasure in this job. why? because i love to work with a lot of people and i get it from this job; also a great team i belong to. i can’t tell how great this team work, unspeakable but i love them. but i want more (yeah, i know, no word ‘enough’ in people’s dictionary); i want the job i’ve been dreaming. working with many people is my pleasure, it will be more when i can talk to them personally, knowing their personalities, abilities, etc. i’m thinking of my future carrier on hr department. i think that’s a perfect place where i can enjoy my job. do any chance? a lot of it! i’m trying to get it but it doesn’t work till today.

i used to say ‘i want to be like him in this way’ or ‘i want to be like her in this way’ or anybody else. i always think that i am worthless than they are, like i said before, no word ‘enough’. i always want to be more. not more than anybody, i want to be more than i am right now. so, improving yourself, makes it worthier, learn to something new; don’t be afraid with deviances, face it!
these are my resolution for my 23rd years:
a.    got a new job i used to dream where i can enough time to do something else to improving myself.
b.    learn for french!! i’m crazy with this language, want to learn and fluent in it.
c.    doing some ‘job’ for god. i’ve been away from my ministry activities and i want to get involved back, but i don’t have time right now, hope i can do it when i reached my 1st resolution.
d.    get settled in one place. today i can’t decide where i have to live. i love surabaya as well as i love denpasar, bali. i have to choose one, and still can’t do it. may be my 1st resolution can help me later.
this is it…. now i continue my life and make it worthier than before.

ps: this note i wrote only for self motivation. thanks for read.

here my first sallary as an employee.

thx God for make it happened.
speachless. i can’t talk to much about Your love. and about this gift.
i know it’s not too much, but i can say enough. even it not so much but i’m proud of it because thats all from my ’sweat’ (although i’ve never get perspiration on work). that’s from God to use my hand, my mind, energy.
it’s feeleing so good when you see a result from your hard work for the first time. its not my first time to get money for my work actually, i had been work for my college, just as a presenter about our program at school. but it just a freelance job, that’s feeling defferent with this.

once more, thank you..

merasa di tag sama om ariep :p

A – Available or Single?
single. does anybody? *ngarep*

B – Best Friend?
hmm.. banyak..

C – Cake or Pie?
cream pie!

D – Drink of Choice?
teh kotak

E – Essential Item(s)?
my notebook! semuanya ada di sini!!

F – Favorite Color?
black and white

G – Gummi Bears or Worms?
sama aja, ga ngaruh sama gua

H – Hometown?
mataram – denpasar – surabaya (now)

I – Indulgence?
books and movies

J – January or February?
february, gua ultah soalnya.. hehehehe…

K – Kids?
hate them! teriakan, tangisan, keributan, berantakan, tidaaaaaaaaaak…..

L – Life is incomplete without?
internet..

M – Marriage Date?
early december, entah tahun berapa.. hwkwkwkwkwk…

N – Number of Siblings?
1 sister

O – Oranges or Apples?
may i choose grape?

P – Phobias/Fears?
new environment..

Q – Favorite Quote?
jarang nginget quote..

R – Reasons to Smile?
everything, kadang ga ada alasan gua suka senyum” sendiri.. (gua bukan orang gila!)

S – Season?
winter. salah satu impian gua adalah merasakan ‘white christmas’

T – Tag Three?
fansi aja deh.. (kerjain ya, awas gak!!!)

U – Unknown Fact About You?
i am a …… (mau tau aja sih!!!)

W – Worst habits?
i like to postpone on something then finished it recently before the deadline.. fiuhhh…

X – X-rays or Ultrasounds?
buat apaan? x ray mungkin, bisa ngeliat tembus pandang gt.. hehehehe…

Y – Your Favorite Foods?
nasi goreng, kemana” pasti gua pesen ini. motto gua, klo suatu resto nasi gorengnya enak, yang lain bakalan enak juga.

Z – Zodiac?
wanita penuang air…

suasana natal dimana”… indah banget, liat banyak dekarasi natal di mal (secara tiap hari pasti ke mal, berhubung kantor baruku ada di mal).. lagu natal dimana”, termasuk di tempat kerja yang full musik… asik bener…

aku pikir natal tahun ini akan menjadi natal terburuk dalam sejarah natalku. ternyata tidak seburuk yang kubayangkan..
sehubungan dengan pekerjaan baruku, aku tidak bisa pulang natal ini, walau lagu “i’ll be home for christmas” akan tetap ada dalam playlistku dalam beberapa minggu terakhir ini.
karena aku karyawan baru, jadi harus pasrah sama schedule yang dibuat sama sang operation manager. tapi berhubung dia manager yang baik, jadi yang nasrani dikasi libur di tgl 25, dan karena banyak yang ngambil cnnual leave, jadi diriku pasrah aja masuk tanggal 24. tapi masuk pagi, jadi masih sempet gereja malem. awalnya menurut schedule aku masuk jam 2 siang, yang berarti pulang jam 11an malem, tapi akhirnya dirubah jadi jam 6-2 siang, fiuhhhh… meskipun di hari sebelumnya aku harus masuk jam 2 siang, pulang jam 11an malem, masuk pagi jam 6, aku bakal jalanin demi natal terbaik tahun ini..

dan berhubung aku ga bisa pulang, ternyata keluargaku berbaik hati dengan mengunjungiku di surabaya tahun ini, jadi natalannya di surabaya ga sendirian.. hurray!!

oya, aku sudah mulai menikmati pekerjaan baruku. bekerja dengan banyak orang, cukup menyenangkan..

happy christmas..